Sometimes you have moments of self-doubt. Days when you are like is this really me? Am I doing what it is I wish to be doing? Most of the time you give yourself a self-assured yes. Other times you give well if it wasn't illegal, yes. And hopefully fewer times you have a hopeful I wish. Today I had an I wish moment.
They have been happening to me in many many different ways, but today it was a big one. Because it was an I wish I could easily change if I wanted to. So you know what. I am changing that I wish into a yes. It is probably one of the most positive things I've planned on doing in a long time. I'm actually pretty excited. To be such a positive polly about it.
I think it is another strength showing just how far I've grown, and how far I've yet to go. I still deal childishly with disappointment, by allowing myself to get upset or depressed. In general I have a bad attitude at times. I'm getting better at it though, or at least I believe I am. I could be tricking myself though.
Well this is a super short post, but I don't think anyone actually reads these so it is more a reflection for myself in the end huh?
Regardless life is a journey and it sure is taking me for a very odd ride.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
Un-united Unity
It is amazing exactly how many people are in the world. It is hard to think you matter when you look at the population of the earth as a whole. It is hard to believe that 1 out of billions really has any factor or influence. Unless of course you are in a place of power, but even those people experience powerless moments. Look at our President, he is powerless. He could become powerful but is too humble for that. How would it feel to look at the country, be considered the most powerful person in it, and still feel helpless. Unable to stop the train wreck that has been years in the making, but trying regardless.
Then you as yourself, do I matter? On a small scale everyone matters. You matter to someone whether you realize it or not. Is it enough though? To know that everything you work for in your entire life amounts to maybe 10 people. 10 people out of billions. Such a small percentage that it doesn't even register. Doesn't even matter?
I'm not saying that people are meaningless, but divided they are. People need to get over this whole one for all, and that's right one that's it, type mind frame. People are just that plural, and that is what matters. You can be selfish, selfless, or a combo, but regardless you always teeter toward one edge. Sadly those who are the richest normally teeter towards selfish, and those who are poor teeter towards selfless. It is a sad world, and we all live in it, yet few want to change it, even 1 million people who want change can't measure up to 10 million who don't care.
People need to unite, people need to accept. People need to just understand. This is impossible though. There are too many dividers in the world, politics, religion, race, economics, class, etc. The world can never be united. The world is just that a world, made of separate continents which has separate countries, separate states/provinces/territories, separate counties/districts, separate cities, separate neighborhoods, separate streets. It is just that, separated, and I doubt and would even say it is impossible for any unity to happen.
The United States is just one of many examples of that.
Then you as yourself, do I matter? On a small scale everyone matters. You matter to someone whether you realize it or not. Is it enough though? To know that everything you work for in your entire life amounts to maybe 10 people. 10 people out of billions. Such a small percentage that it doesn't even register. Doesn't even matter?
I'm not saying that people are meaningless, but divided they are. People need to get over this whole one for all, and that's right one that's it, type mind frame. People are just that plural, and that is what matters. You can be selfish, selfless, or a combo, but regardless you always teeter toward one edge. Sadly those who are the richest normally teeter towards selfish, and those who are poor teeter towards selfless. It is a sad world, and we all live in it, yet few want to change it, even 1 million people who want change can't measure up to 10 million who don't care.
People need to unite, people need to accept. People need to just understand. This is impossible though. There are too many dividers in the world, politics, religion, race, economics, class, etc. The world can never be united. The world is just that a world, made of separate continents which has separate countries, separate states/provinces/territories, separate counties/districts, separate cities, separate neighborhoods, separate streets. It is just that, separated, and I doubt and would even say it is impossible for any unity to happen.
The United States is just one of many examples of that.
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