The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. Life is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day your life really begins, but it doesn't slow how quickly it will still end.
Yet, you need to get ahead of it. Beat the odds, and realize that no matter what happens life is yours. If you are foolish and selfish... waste your time worrying about the little things and ignore the bigger picture. You are just an idiot. Whose allowed themselves to find security in the menial tasks.
I'm tired of school and of work. It's too much or maybe just too little of worth. It bothers me. I feel like I'm going nowhere in life everything is the same thing day in and day out. I just want a moment of relaxation. I haven't felt relaxed or able to just not think about school and work for far too long.
It seems silly that this is what life ends up being. Work work work. Whether it is at a real job or school work. It takes up your time, your energy, and your life. I feel like I'm wasting away doing pointless activities in a pointless existence.
I think it is just I want a break. I want a week in which I have no work, no school or assignments due. I just want to have a moment of pure happiness in which everything just seems perfect if only for a second. Because let's be honest perfection doesn't last long and life would be just as boring and annoying if it was perfect just like it is stressful (if that makes sense).
I think it has just gotten to that point where I need to go to a beautiful place and rest my mind. Sadly a trip to Scotland isn't tangible at this time... I miss wandering, I miss just doing whatever seemed fun that day.
I hate reality. I hate my job. I hate school.
I just want to do something I love for a little bit.... but because of life I don't have the money to throw away to go on a trip.... or vacation... or even long drive.... Just one week of freedom from responsiblity. Is that too much?
Yeah, sadly it is.
